Nelson reflects on moving toward his 50th birthday and remembering the wide variety of places God has taken him over the years so far.
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September 13, 2022
Woke up earlier than usual at 5:15 am. It’s a throwback to the days when I moved up to Michigan to be with Papa and Mom while he was dying from cancer.
I used to wake up about now and sit there and journal. Then I went to Honolulu, and then to New Zealand and back into YWAM for these last 12 years or so. Hard to believe it’s been that long.
And now at almost 50 years old, I’m infected with stage 4 lung cancer, sitting in a small apartment in Rochester, MN, married to the most amazing person I have ever met, with an infant son, fighting for my life, not really in YWAM anymore because I can’t be. What a crazy life God gave us.
Although I’m grateful for what we have and where we are going, although I don’t know where that is, I know that God is at the wheel. I just finished a full load application for a $175K loan for a house we hope to buy. Seems like God, but we don’t have the load yet, so who knows.
My level of belief for that stuff really struggles. Let’s put it this way. Banks don’t tend to be the most forgiving places. But you are in control, Lord. You have brought us this far, so you can bring us the rest of the way.
Annso and I are a perfect fit, and you have brought us together. I have no doubt about that. We sharpen each other in the perfect way. Nonetheless, I pray for the green light on this house, that we can start our life here in Minnesota.
Thank you for the seasons, that it’s not so hot here like in Hawaii. Thank you that we don’t run Kokua Crew or Little Red Church anymore. Thank you for your Spirit and how you speak when we are listening. Last night’s devotion was great about you speaking through the whisper, if we are listening. I think you had to shout to get me and her out of Kona. I don’t know what it would have taken otherwise.
Thank you for the contact we’ve been able to have with the Michigan clan and the others who live around here, while we have been here. You are a good God even though it’s hard, and you can seem hard sometimes. I’m so glad that loan application is over for the most part. It feels like I’m on trial when I fill out stuff like that. And on paper, I’ve never looked good.
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“The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when He delights in his way.” (Psalm 37:23)