In this post Nelson examines his inner motives for living the life that he does. After being in missions and literally circling the globe in ministry, what does he want now? He’s trying to figure that out.
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Recently a friend asked me when I’m going to get back into pastoring. When the tables are turned, I do the same to others. When I hear that someone is leaving YWAM to go back home and get a job, get married, buy a house, start earning money, I have the same response.
“Do I care about money, business ventures, or secular education? What about missions? What about Asia? What about DTS [Discipleship Training School] staff?” When I hear that someone is committing to learning a new language or starting a new YWAM base in Idaho, I’m wanting to do anything I can to encourage them, hoping for them to stay in it.
But when it’s me, I want to be able to own a house, to stay in one place, to have a family, and the rest of it. Interesting how that works. It’s easy to advise someone else to throw their dreams and earthly goals to the wind and trust God and live radically by faith in a different country. But when it comes to me, I want to be back in the USA.
I guess we are able to have a witness with the cancer and handling that like we should. I guess I just learned that it doesn’t matter if you buy a house or get a hold of some money. They are doing the same thing. What they really want is to see people radically stepping out in faith and doing things they can’t or don’t believe they can do.
Being a pastor, good. Getting back into YWAM, good. Going off to India, good. Working and becoming land owners here in Rochester, boring for people. Maybe I’m over-thinking it. I see it like a desire fulfilled from the Lord.
Lord, I know you are in this house process and the miracle of getting a loan without a real income or anything. I know that having it lower our bills is a miracle. I know that I’ve wanted it for so long, and you brought us here to have this dream realized. We are 2 blocks from Mayo, which makes life easier in that way.
I’m grateful for the house, for our tenants, for the leases that are signed, for being able to be in business. I am willing to get back into ministry and wouldn’t be surprised if you open some doors for that through our new church, once a little more time goes by. You always seem to do that.
I’m thankful for your timing. I pray, Lord, that you would show us what to take on and what to let go of, once that time comes. I’m thankful for Annso and her dedication to taking care of Will. I’m thankful that Astrid is here to help us.
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“Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might.” (Ecclesiastes 9:10)