In this entry Nelson describes a brutal panic attack that nearly overwhelmed him. But with help from Ann Sophie and Astrid, they rode it out together, and things calmed.
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October 27, 2022
I’ll take sadness over panic any day. Last night I woke up freezing, couldn’t get warm, took Tylenol, waited for it to kick in, vomited on the floor, started to have a panic about breathing, couldn’t get enough air even with the machine.
Annso was right there the whole time. Astrid came over for support. They are like saints. They cleaned up everything and waited on me until the ordeal was over.
I can’t say enough about Annso. She is like no other person I’ve met. My partner, my best friend, my helper, just amazing. This morning, we are back to keeping things as normal as possible.
Annso and I took a walk with the baby boy, which was great. The fall leaves are all over the place, and this is what we always missed in Hawaii when we were there. Now we live with 4 clear seasons and all that goes with it.
Hawaii seems more like a dream with each passing day… even though we were there for 6 years. We talked about that while we walked through the fall streets here in Rochester.
Even though Hawaii has its enchanting, dream-like feel, we determined that it was good to leave when we did. Annso and I made the most of it while we had the chance. There were a lot of good years there, but God pulled us out, and now here we are. I have total certainty that we are at the right place for this season.
We have a great church, we bought a house yesterday. We are doing everything we can to plug in here, just like we did in Hawaii for the time we were there. No one knows how long this season will last, but it’s best not to have one foot out the door, or you don’t really get anywhere while you’re there.
It’s hard to believe we pulled out of Hawaii as fast as we did, then sold everything off from a distance. Whether we go back at some point remains to be seen, but for now, no plans in that way.
“Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
“Therefore my heart is glad, and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead, nor will you let your faithful one see decay. You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.” (Psalm 16:5-11)
That’s the passage from Mom. She said she’ll be praying it over me all day today. I’m so grateful for the prayers of all these people. I hope they don’t forget me, but I don’t think they will.
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“I will pour down for you a blessing until there is no more need.” (Malachi 3:10b)