Grueling Turns to Grand

Although Nelson came home from the hospital yesterday, by 6:45 AM today we were leaving home to go back to “Pill Hill,” which is what the locals call the massive Mayo Clinic campus.

First-up for Nelson was a blood draw— only two tries today, which is the limit for each tech. After that, they have to call someone else to try.

The blood draw was to help doctors closely monitor Nelson‘s clot, along with his levels of blood thinner. And these must be balanced with his fluctuating platelet count.

At our second appointment, this one with an oncologist, we learned that if the platelets in his blood continue to drop, the blood thinner must be decreased. Today that happened, since his new count, which had been 55 yesterday, was down to 42. This was disappointing, since dissolving the clot will now take longer.

The doctor lowered Nelson‘s blood thinner from 10 mg twice daily to 2.5 twice, quite a drop, thanks to chemotherapy doing it’s dirty work.

She spent a while examining Nelson and listening to his comments about how he was feeling. The mouth soreness, which has twisted Nelson‘s sense of taste, has become a film, a coating that makes food taste like sawdust (Nelson’s words). She said this will lessen with time, and we hope that’s true.

She told us to wrap Nelson‘s legs more firmly, noting the swelling of his limbs, which is worse than ever. Blood flowing into his arm and hand , she said, can’t freely return past the clot, causing swelling. The legs, she thinks, are a different problem. Veins are leaking fluid that’s been separated from blood flow (thanks to the cancer), which accumulates at the lowest point.

Nelson‘s third appointment was with pulmonology. His doctor and his assistant drained the left lung through its new catheter, 550 milliliters since yesterday. “You’ll have to drain it daily like the other side,” he said.

The right lung had virtually no fluid in it, which is why Ann Sophie couldn’t get it to drain last night. Doing that lung now will be just on alternate days.

As the doctor did an ultrasound, he showed us small pockets or fissures filled with fluid that only a special drug could “get.” But since that process involves being off blood thinners for 48 hours, he felt it was too risky to use it right now.

Our next stop was in the cardiology department where Nelson had another echocardiogram, an imaging test that sees how the heart chambers and valves are working. When the tech suddenly left the room telling Nelson she needed a signature to continue, he pictured himself leaving the exam room on a stretcher and heading back to the hospital.

He said he prayed harder than he ever had that God wouldn’t let that happen —and God didn’t. It turned out the tech had seen some unusual things on her screen, but when she looked at the rest of Nelson‘s record, she understood. Abnormalities are his norm.

From there it was off to one of the Clinic pharmacies to pick up seven prescriptions. Everything was ready.

Halfway through our busy day, Nelson and I shared a brief
lunch in the hospital cafeteria. He was plagued by nausea throughout the meal, scanning the area for an appropriate place to run, if needed. Eventually it passed.

As we headed home at last, chemo’s misery came with us. Soon after we got there, he was vomiting. When it was over, his oxygen helped, and he quickly settled into his lazy boy and fell into a deep sleep.

 

 

It had been quite a day, made worse by chemo dogging our steps. But at 7 PM, something grand happened. Ann Sophie‘s mom arrived to our apartment, all the way from Germany! It was love at first sight for Oma and little Will— something chemo could not snatch from us.

“Let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us…” (Hebrews 12:1)

God is here.

Throughout the Bible, God tells us he’ll never abandon us. He assures us of his love and says he’s as close as our right hand. But sometimes, when going through life‘s hardest challenges, we wonder where he is.

Here in Rochester, as we do our best to take one day at a time, we often pray this:

“Father, please let us see you today. Give us a strong sense of your presence.” Those are good prayers, since sometimes God seems to have gone away.

Or has he?

Yesterday when Nelson was discouraged about not being able to leave the hospital, he and Ann Sophie prayed, asking God to deliver some specific encouragement. “Show us your unfailing love, Lord.“

It didn’t take him very long to show himself. As Ann Sophie was leaving Nelson’s hospital room, one of the nurses said, “I’m praying for you. We need the Lord to make your path straight.”

That’s a direct quote from Proverbs 3:6, and suddenly, there was God, speaking his own words over Ann Sophie.

In the hospital elevator, a young man saw baby Will and said, “Is it your baby that’s sick ?”

Ann Sophie said, “No.”

“That’s good,“ he said. “It’s not my baby, either. It’s me.“

“Is it cancer?“

“Yes, but I hope to get some time.“

Before he walked away he said, “Don’t ever give up. Just keep trusting the Lord.“ And there was God, with another important truth from his word.

A few minutes later, as Ann Sophie was leaving the hospital after dark, she’d forgotten where she’d parked the car and was walking around several blocks. A man looking like he might want to cause trouble approached her. Her inner defenses went up, especially since she had the baby with her.

When the man passed her by, he stopped, turned around, and said, “May God bless you and your little baby. And remember, Jesus loves you.“

Ann Sophie thanked him and saw God again. None of us believe these encounters are anything other than God himself moving in close with love, courage and a special message: “I’m here.”

Also, today he showed his loving kindness big-time by giving Nelson the desire of his heart—to come home!

Of course things aren’t perfect. His legs, feet and left arm are still badly swollen, and chemo-nausea kicked in tonight with some vomiting. Then the catheter into his right lung refused to drain. So it’s back to the clinic tomorrow for further tests and a troubleshooting ultrasound.

 

But tonight, none of that matters, because our Nelson is home.

Jesus told his disciples, “Because you have seen me, you believe….” (John 20:29)

We soldier on.

When Nelson‘s father was alive, he used to encourage his young children in a special way. If they were going through something hard—like stitches in an ER—he would say, “You’re being a good soldier, kid. Hang in there.”

These days, if he was with us, I think he’d say the same thing while watching his son fight this hard battle against cancer.

Today, after multiple doctors consulted with each other yesterday, a decision was made to perform a procedure on Nelson, despite the risk. They would transport him to one of the surgical centers here and establish a type of port going into his left lung similar to that on the right. It would be a drain that could open and close rather than remain open like the one in the hospital.

The reason it was risky was because they had to stop his blood thinner meds for six or more hours in order to successfully do the surgery. During that time, anything could happen. A piece of his existing blood clot could break off and move into his lungs—a disaster. Or other clots could quickly form elsewhere in his body.

But without this new drain he couldn’t leave the hospital. With it, Ann Sophie could manage draining his lungs at home, both sides. Today’s surgery would be one more step toward being discharged.

Two days ago we were round tabling the idea of this possible surgery, weighing the pros and cons. Nelson said, “I just don’t want that. Not another ambulance ride, another surgery, and then another recuperation. No thanks.“

But today, there he was, being strapped onto a gurney and wheeled away to an ambulance that was indeed headed for a surgical center, to do what he didn’t want to do. But he was being a good soldier.

When it was all over and he was back in his regular room tonight, he reported that despite pain in his side, he felt great. Also, after his stint in the recovery room, he was left free of all tubes and IV lines and is now taking all meds by mouth. But best of all, tonight the staff gave him the good word that he can be discharged—tomorrow! This soldier has won a victory.

Back at home, I was singing to little Will, and without realizing it, was actually singing about Nelson:

“Onward Christian soldier, marching as to war,
With the cross of Jesus going on before.
Christ the Royal Master leads against the foe.
Forward into battle, see his banner go.”’

You’re being a good soldier, kid. Hang in there.

“Share in suffering as a good soldier of Christ Jesus.” (2 Timothy 2:3)