Nelson’s journal 3/9/22

Nelson started every day with Scripture and prayer. He didn’t always have time to journal, but this early morning hour with his heavenly Father was the impetus for the rest of his day. It put the Lord’s agenda at the top of his own, and after that first-hour, he counted on God’s guidance through the hours that followed. 

Today’s entry is a scriptural quote that powerfully influenced him on that March morning. He wanted to be that verse 9 guy, the one with a heart fully committed to his Lord. 

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March 9, 2022 

2 Chronicles 16:7-9:

At that time Hanani the seer came to Asa king of Judah and said to him: “Because you relied on the king of Aram and not on the Lord your God, the army of the king of Aram has escaped from your hand. Were not the Cushites and Libyans a mighty army with great numbers of chariots and horsemen?

“Yet when you relied on the Lord, he delivered them into your hand. For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him. You have done a foolish thing, and from now on you will be at war.”

I was just reading a journal entry from March 6, 2014. What a different time. I had no idea what was coming. I was asking you for wisdom, Lord, just the same as now.

You have done so much for and in me since then. Even just that recently life was so much simpler, no masks to wear, not as much control coming from authority.

Love the verse above. “For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him.” (v.9)

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“Draw near to God and he will draw near to you.” (James 4:8)

Nelson’s journal 3/3/22

Nelson was always on the alert for God’s messages to him, trying to remain open to his ideas, especially those that seem impossible at the time. This applied to everything from career choice, living situation, even filling out tax forms. How does a person make good plans without becoming controlling? In this journal entry, he’s figured it out.

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March 3, 2022 

Isaiah 55…One of the all time greats. God reminding us that his thoughts are not our thoughts nor his ways ours.

I have seen so many times how he leads us in a way and for a reason we could never have guessed, so how can we even plan anything? It’s funny we even try. But we sure do.

Plans are good, but the outcome is always in the hands of the Lord. If I try to honor him and do the right thing, that’s the important part. Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness… that’s what matters, not where we go or what we do.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah 55:8-9)

I want to be honest, but not a fool or a sucker. For example, doing taxes takes a skill I don’t really have, but I paid a guy to do it all those years, then realized I’m smart enough to do it. I just don’t like the dirty feeling I get once I’m done.

There’s no way I know to do it without feeling like I have to either screw myself so bad or that I’m somehow cheating. So now I do it somewhere in the middle and try not to feel guilty. Anyway, lots of things have gone that way for me. I used to obsess on them and they ruined my life and became gods.

Now I mostly let things go and leave the results up to the Lord. Maybe it’s a release of control. I think so. People who try to control everything seem so much unhappier than the ones who just focus on living and less on the bottom line.

Working with Tim yesterday was fun, and I enjoy learning about electricity and like the thought of being an expert at something. I’ve always been the jack of all trades, master of none. I’d love to at least be an expert in something. lol.

Maybe God doesn’t care about that, but I would like to try to become a licensed electrician in the State of Hawaii. How hard can it be? Once you learn something, it instantly becomes easy.

Been praying for Ukraine at church and in Kokua Crew. It’s been good. Also, I like how it has eclipsed the whole corona virus thing. That was getting so old. Hard to believe they made such a big deal about that for so long, when it was basically nothing all along. A lesson in what the media can do.

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“The Lord of Hosts has sworn, ’As I have planned, so shall it be’.” (Isaiah 14:24)

Nelson’s journal 2/23/22

As Nelson journals, he often gains new insights by working things out through the keyboard on his laptop. Today he’s pondering the difference between physical blindness and spiritual blindness. And in thinking about seeing, he’s also learning something special about hearing.

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February 23, 2022

We had a leader named Christiphe speak at the KC (Kokua Crew)meeting last night. Pretty charismatic guy, catered to the youth, said he was a pastor for 7 years. Stayed within the time frame, which is rare. Most go way over what I tell them. We’re halfway through the week with Sharon and their gang (from their home church in Tennessee). It’s super busy, starts early and finishes late.

Been reading John and now in chapter 9 about the man receiving sight. Site to the blind. Jesus did that a fair amount. One of the ailments of humanity, blindness. It’s a fear people have, it’s a pretty severe handicap if you have it.

Papa (Nelson’s dad) was always worried about eyes and taking care of them. The guy in John 9 was born blind. Sometimes it doesn’t tell how it happened. Of course the story is about spiritual blindness and the kangaroo trial the Pharisees had, to try and find out who healed the man and how it happened.

They hated Jesus. He was giving the people sight, causing them to see and giving them power be making them healthy. Some leaders wanted the people sick and run down so it was easier to oppress them. Why? Just the power it gave them. What an evil thing.

They suffered from blindness too, blinded by intoxication with power. Is blindness a sin? Seems more like a symptom, amounting to a lack of vision. It’s obvious that a blind person doesn’t have vision. John 9:38:

Then the man said, ‘Lord, I believe,’ and he worshiped him. Jesus said, ‘For judgment I have come into this world, so that the blind will see and those who see will become blind.’ Some Pharisees who were with him heard him say this and asked, ‘What? Are we blind too?’ Jesus said, ‘If you were blind, you would not be guilty of sin; but now that you claim you can see, your guilt remains’.”

Seems vision is something we are accountable for. If we don’t see and do the wrong thing, it’s not wrong, but if we do, or even claim to see and do wrong, we are guilty.

Lord, I pray for vision. So many things can affect our vision. What am I guided by? What am I getting security from?

The love of money is one thing that can blind people and cause them to make wrong choices. Bob told me he heard the pastor at Living Stones say that life is like Monopoly. At the end of the game, all the money is put back in the box and the box goes back on the shelf. Why would we be greedy with what we’ve been given then? Spiritual blindness maybe?

Lord, take spiritual blindness away from us. Amen.

Took the guys in small group to the prayer room after the flags tonight to hear God’s voice together. The usual stuff, but I’m shocked how much God wants to speak to us if we give him the time. We would all be so much better off if we just spent that time with God.

Just making the time is 99% of the battle. But the “desire for other things” usually wins out. It’s been better for me though, lately. I’m thankful for the life we have, for Annso mainly, for the BBC team we are hosting this week, for Sharon and the connection we have with each other, for good connections with people here, so that we have each other.

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”The listening ear and the seeing eye, the Lord has made them both.” (Proverbs 20:12)