Newlywed Love (#37)

February 28, 1970

At Cathy and John'sAs the end of February approached, we couldn’t believe we’d already come to our 3rd month anniversary. But 1970 wasn’t a Leap Year, so the calendar hopped right over our number: 29. But that didn’t stop us from celebrating.

Our friends Cathy and John, married less than a month, invited us for dinner, and the 4 of us shared good conversation and good food. Actually there were 5 of us, if pets count.

With JeanetteCathy loved cats, and her black and white Jeanette had been grandfather-ed into their new marriage and our evening. Baby kitties were due in a few weeks, and I begged Cathy to let me come and observe the births. Having never seen anything being born, it was a big deal to me, so she agreed.

Nate wasn’t a cat person, though, and cautioned me about falling in love with the any of the newborn kittens. “Remember,” he said, “we’ve already talked about getting a puppy.” I hoped I could resist.

Cathy was a wonderful cook. She loved trying new recipes and was much better at it than I was, so each time we shared a meal, she taught me something new. Watching her work was like watching a cooking show on TV. And unlike working in my tiny “kitchenette,” she made meals in a giant kitchen with large appliances and lots of counter space.

That’s because she and John were renting the main floor of a small two-story house where a Formica-topped table and 6 chairs fit easily into the kitchen.

John and Nate

As Cathy and I got the meal ready, John and Nate talked about law school and various connected struggles. Nate was uncharacteristically quiet during dinner, so when we got home much later, I asked him about it.

“Two things were bothering me,” he said. “The first was that they let that cat jump up on the table while we were eating.”

“I know,” I said. “But at least they took her down right away. But what’s the second thing?”

“John and I were talking about what our dream jobs would be once we were out of law school, and all of a sudden he made a complete turnaround and said he was thinking about dropping out.”

“Of law school?”

“Yes. He said his real dream job was to be a writer.”

“Oh wow,” I said. “Would he really drop out now? I mean, so close to the end?”

“I don’t know. I hope not. He’s worked hard. But he sounded serious.”

We were members of a very mobile generation, and among our friends, change was a constant. I was thankful that Nate was someone who thought it was important to finish what he started. And regardless of what his friend John would do, I knew Nate would get his law degree — no matter how hard it got or how long it took.

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men.” (Colossians 3:23)

Newlywed Love (#36)

February 24, 1970

As the weeks of our marriage passed, Nate and I continued to enjoy each other to the fullest. But there was one thing about being married and living far from family and friends that I really missed: time with girlfriends.

With Mary downtownI especially missed my sister Mary (left), but also Lynn, Connie, Julie, my 3 apartment roommates, and my team teacher in Chicago. Though I’d been living and working in Champaign for more than 6 months and loved my job and our little apartment, it hit me that getting married and leaving town had eliminated most of my girlfriend-time.

As I wrote in my journal, “I’m no longer living the frolicsome life of an independent apartment-dweller in the big city. I’m no longer a free agent.”

But as I learned in the months leading up to our wedding, saying yes to marriage meant saying no to other things. And anytime-freedom to be with friends was one of those things.

By marrying Nate, I had chosen to put him first from then on, and I very much wanted to do that. It might take a lifetime to learn to love him in the no-holds-barred way he loved me, but I was committed to trying.

Computer generated concept of cornerstone

Computer generated concept of cornerstone

The full truth was that as we got married, we were putting a cornerstone into place that would end up being the foundation on which a new household (and maybe a family) would gradually be built – the home of Nathan and Margaret Nyman. Through the years many other stones would be added to that first one, which would end up to be the structure of our lives.

Every idea either of us had from then on needed to pass a test: Is this something that will tear down or build up our household? If we answered honestly each time and made decisions accordingly, we could be sure our home and the relationships inside of it would stand the test of time.

So where did that leave me with my girlfriends? If I spent more time thinking about, talking to, going out with friends than with my husband, small cracks would develop in our foundation. Both of us wanted our relationship to thrive – and to be #1. And we’d been told that marriages suffer when outside interests and people gobble up too much time.

And so, concerning my friends “back home,” Nate and I hashed it out honestly and got all our feelings on the table. Our conclusion was that once in a while both of us could spend time and energy on relationships apart from each other. But we’d have to be very careful. And the other person’s opinion would have to matter.

Jesus as CornerstoneThen we prayed, asking God to superimpose his desires over our own whenever we might be doing harm to our marriage, sometimes even without knowing it.

As always, Nate came down on the side of lots of freedom for me, and just knowing he felt that way helped reinforce my desire to keep him as my top priority.

“Invite your friends to Champaign any time you want,” he said, “and they’ll always be welcome.”

I wrote in my journal:

“It seems so fresh being married to Nate. We talk about everything and also never miss our daily devotional time and prayer together. I think that’s doing the trick for us.”

But of course there was no trick. It was actually Jesus the Cornerstone who was part of the conversation and was keeping all the issues straight.

“This is what the Sovereign Lord says: I lay…. a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who relies on it will never be stricken with panic.” (Isaiah 28:16)

Newlywed Love (#34)

February 17, 1970

NoteNate and I did a good job keeping track of each other. If either of us was planning to divert from our usual routine, we told the other ahead of time. If plans changed without advance notice, we’d leave notes.

Some of our friends thought that was “too confining,” though Nate and I saw it as simple courtesy. But this was just one of many points of disagreement we began having with some of the new friends we were making through the university.

As we got to know people, we would often share a meal during which a handful of us would round-table different ideas, sharing opinions. Inevitably, some of our discussions would become heated and uncomfortable.

Nate and I would talk privately afterwards, always stunned to see how radically different we and others thought. After all, the whole group had much in common. All of us were in our twenties. Many were in grad school, and quite a few were paired in couples – some married, some not.

And we were all sharing our young adulthood years during a time of sweeping societal upheaval. But opinions were swinging every which way. Morals were changing rapidly, and feminists were preaching a philosophy that confused both men and women.

Vietnam WarCollege students were rioting on campuses. People who’d been raised in churches were leaving them…. and leaving God. And for the very first time, we were watching a horrific war take place on our television sets.

Nate and I concluded that the diverse opinions we were hearing from our peers were the fallout from these many changes. As America began throwing away the traditions of her history, we and our friends were interpreting things in different ways.

There was, for example, talk of “open marriage.” The premise was that if a husband or wife met someone that caught their fancy, they were free to explore that relationship (even sexually) while remaining married. It would be just a dalliance, nothing permanent, and if both marriage partners understood this, no one would be hurt.

Students eat and talkNate and I were bewildered when others nodded in agreement, since we didn’t see how this could possibly work. When we asked what would happen if just one partner enjoyed frequent dalliances and the other felt left out or jealous, the consensus was that that person would be free to leave the marriage.

How could intelligent people, we wondered, think such crazy thoughts? As time went by, these debates left Nate and I feeling more empty and unsatisfied.

It finally occurred to us that the discussions we had in our couples Sunday school class were more rewarding than those with university pals. We concluded it was because Jesus and his Word were at the center, standing strong with a set of standards that didn’t blow with the wind or change with the culture.

From then on, Nate and I began choosing our friends more carefully. We were learning an important lesson: we could associate with all kinds of people, but our most fulfilling relationships would always be with other Christians.

IntertwinedWe learned that core beliefs control the way people think and act. When hearts and minds align on those, deep connections can be made that can’t be made when they refuse to line up. It was a meaningful discovery for us, and we were thankful anew for each other – and our shared beliefs.

 

“There is one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is over all, in all, and living through all.” (Ephesians 4:5-6)