Failing to Succeed?

I’m a terrible clothes shopper and hate to go to malls. Set me in a women’s clothing store with an assignment to find a new outfit, and I’d rather flee the country.

Maybe that’s why my closet is full of outdated items, most of which are older than a decade. Modernizing is just too complicated, not to mention time consuming, expensive, and sometimes humiliating. My failure rate is high.

As I see it, there are 9 clothes-shopping stresses:

  1. Racks and racks...Giving up several hours of precious time.
  2. Finding a store with clothes designed for 60-somethings.
  3. Getting acquainted with a store’s layout and inventory.
  4. Pawing through endless racks of clothes.
  5. Choosing a variety of items to try on, hoping they’ll morph into a cute outfit.
  6. Squaring off with a full length mirror in a harshly lit dressing room.
  7. Creating 3 piles of clothes in that small space: (A) Possibles; (B) Rejects;             (C) Needing other sizes or colors.
  8. Re-finding the racks of other sizes and colors.
  9. Repeating 1 – 8.

Even after all that, the whole convoluted process may be fruitless, requiring a 1-9 do-over on a later date. It’s a mystery to me how so many women find this process enjoyable.

Today I found myself in yet another massive mall making a third attempt to find a business-casual outfit that I’ve needed for some time. I put it off as long as possible, not wanting to spoil an otherwise good day. Friends suggested I try a place named Chico’s.

Chico'sWhen I stepped into the store, a little flame of hope flickered. A dozen other women my age were working the racks, chatting over great sale prices. Maybe this would be my one-stop-shop.

Our lives are full of things we don’t especially want to do, not necessarily dramatic ordeals but just everyday tasks. We know that if we want to act like responsible adults, we must tend to them. Shopping for clothes is only one of hundreds, and though we might tackle these jobs in fits and starts, for the most part they get done.

But what about spiritual tasks?

Are we excited to push other things out of the way to make room for them? Or do we look at things like prayer and Bible reading as duties we “must tend to?” Do we approach them with eager expectation, or do we see them as non-obligatory chores?

Bag of goodiesToday I left Chico’s with a bag of goodies, but that’s not usually the case after my shopping excursions. More often than not, I finish empty-handed.

When I go “shopping” for more of God, however, I’m always successful, 100% of the time.

“Acknowledge God…. and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the Lord searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought. If you seek him, he will be found by you.” (1 Chronicles 28:9)

Do the Math

7 grandsToday I finally filled the last opening in my frame of 8 grandchildren, completing the group with a picture of newborn Andrew, who arrived at the end of May.

What a joy it was to put him on the family roster and also on my prayer list by name, though I’d talked to God about him well before we knew what his name would be.

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And he wasn’t the only unborn person in those conversations. Before Andrew had arrived and given us the answers to our wonderings, Linnea announced that my 9th grandbaby was on the way, too. Since God already knew the “who” about him or her just as he did about little Andrew ahead of time, he and I added that grandchild to our conversation.

For 9 grands

Then today, as I was praying through my list of 9, God asked a good question. It was as if he said, “Are you going to hunt for a 9-way picture frame now, or will you think bigger, like I do?” He was inviting me to pray with a new kind of math:

9 + X = G *

At that point he and I teamed up to have some fun, embarking on a conversation about all my grands: those born, the one in process, and those yet to be. None are unknown to him, and as I prayed, he privately filled in the blanks about those in a future generation.

I know I’m praying requests that are ok with him when I claim verses about my grands learning of God’s love early, running toward him and not away when troubles come, and trusting in the dark whatever he teaches them in the light.

Hundreds of his other scriptural promises and principles sit ready for any of us who desire to pray for our yet-to-be-born descendants. Since God is a Being outside space and time, he can easily reserve our prayers for the lives coming after us, applying them down the line. This holds true even if we’ve died before those births occur.

For 10 grandsFor 16 grands

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

All of us have heard the old motto, “Give the gift that keeps on giving.” I can’t think of a more long range, continually-giving gift than the supernatural activity of our mighty God in the lives of our relatives.

For 21 grands

And so, as I go shopping for a picture frame to hold my 9 grandchildren, maybe it should have 10 openings. Or maybe a dozen? Or 16? Or 20? Or maybe I should just earmark a big blank wall and buy a giant roll of tape? I’m not sure, but the one thing I am sure of is that praying for them all is going to be absolutely grand!

“This is my covenant with [those who love me],” says the Lord. “My Spirit will not leave them, and neither will these words I have given you. They will be on your lips and on the lips of your children and your children’s children forever. I, the Lord, have spoken!” (Isaiah 59:21)

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Without Wavering

photo(6)Today I participated in our church’s biannual prayer vigil. By definition, a vigil is “a period of watchful attention.” It’s sometimes coupled with fasting or staying awake during normal sleep hours to focus on something special by guarding it, observing it, or praying over it. And today we were praying.

Those who wanted to participate signed up for a time slot and promised to pray then, either at the church or from another location. Throughout one day, the church and its current concerns would be continuously brought to God’s throne room.

Our church prayer team created a private atmosphere of tranquility for those who wanted to use it, complete with candles, a comfortable chair, a table, lamp, hymnal, Bible, and curtains drawn. The moments of people’s prayer times were set apart for just the Lord and them, yet we were all joining in one consecutive vigil much like links on a chain reaching from our prayer room to heaven.

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Pages of printed verses were made available, and one of the passages I appreciated today was from Romans 4:“Abraham never wavered in believing God’s promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. He was fully convinced that God is able to do whatever he promises.” (20-21)

Abraham had an astounding faith that believed God would follow through with what he said. The promise this passage refers to is that his descendants would grow into a great nation, this when he was already old and had no children. Even more remarkable was that during this time when he believed God would come through but hadn’t seen it yet, right then Abraham’s faith “grew stronger.”

Extraordinary! And the reason? He was “fully convinced” God would keep his word.

Before I began to pray at the vigil, I asked myself a serious question. If I’m just as “fully convinced” as Abraham was, why do I sometimes “waver in believing?”

Once in a while after God does answer prayer in a measureable way, my faith gets a boost, but that’s after-the-fact. Abraham’s faith actually grew while he waited to see God act, literally waiting for decades.

As I thought about this, I saw the next phrase in Romans 4: “In this [continuing to believe against all odds], he brought glory to God.”

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Light bulb moment! Believing that God will do what he promises, whether we see it in our lifetime or not, actually brings glory to God. I was wrong when I thought believing without wavering was about my own will power. Instead it’s about God’s glory. Continuing to believe when there seems to be no hope at all is one sure way I can bring blessing to my Father.

So when I began to pray today, it was easy to blanket the requests with scriptural promises, believing without wavering if for no other reason than to bring glory to him.

Even when there was no reason for hope, Abraham kept hoping.” (Romans 4:18)