When we’re born, we all become citizens of someplace. I was born in Chicago, Illinois, USA, as were our seven children. Nate was born in Galesburg, also in Illinois, and the USA. These bits of information become an anchor throughout our lives, topping many a form and application.

Katy, Nicholas and the newborn twins were born into British citizenship and have many rights and privileges Hans doesn’t have in England, even after marrying a citizen of the UK. The locale of our birth matters, not just when you’re young but always, no matter where you live or what you do.

In recent months, Hans worked hard to “up” his status with the British government, a complicated, months-long procedure. His original birth certificate was important in the process as proof that he really was Hans Nyman, citizen of the USA. He chose to retain his American citizenship, which no doubt complicated the task. My question was, can someone be a citizen of two separate locations? After all, you can only be born in one place at one specific time.

Our British family has answered that for me. Little Nicholas, only 16 months old, is already a citizen in two places: the UK and the USA. Katy worked diligently on an inch-thick stack of forms to accomplish this before he was even three months old. So our little grandson is now an official citizen of both Britain and America. He has passports and citizenship papers in both countries.

As an adult, Nicholas will find it quite useful to be able to come and go as he pleases, out of and back into the two most powerful nations of the world. He’ll be able to own property, conduct business, have a bank account, vote and stay indefinitely without any rigmarole from authorities, both in England and America.

Today Katy began the same process toward dual-citizenship for the twins, making a trip into town to officially register their births. Arriving home with several copies of their freshly minted birth certificates, she has started the ball rolling. And the whole thing is predicated on the fact that the babies’ parents were born in different countries with certification to prove it. As a matter of fact, the British-born twins have their father’s Chicago, Illinois, USA birth locale printed on the new birth certificates secured today.

Ultimately, however, these powerful credentials will become null and void. In the end, birth locations won’t matter. Nate is a case in point. He left his entire file cabinet behind when he died, birth certificate, social security number and all, taking up residency in a brand new locale on a permanent basis. Those critical citzenship papers mean nothing to him now and have no power over him. 

Although he didn’t need documentation to safely cross the border into paradise, he did need one important reference, something far superior to an earthly birth certificate or passport. He needed the sanction of Jesus Christ, the creator and controller of both heaven and earth. And if Nate was quizzed about his qualifications to cross over, the only thing he needed was his belief in Jesus as the Son of God, the Savior of his soul. With that, the Lord swung wide the gates to welcome him home.

“Our citizenship is in heaven, and we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.” (Philippians 3:20-21)

 Sometimes I miss Nate so much I allow myself a ridiculous fantasy that may or may not be healthy. It’s reminiscent of a movie scene in which the woman sees a walking figure afar off, unsure of who it is. Suddenly she recognizes a familiar walk and realizes it’s her beloved. A shiver travels through her like an electric current, and she flies toward him, stumbling over her own feet to get there quickly. They swing around in a loving embrace of happy reunion.

In my make-believe movie scene, this is how I let myself see Nate, appearing at the distant end of our narrow lane, walking steadily toward me. I’m aware we won’t have a happily-ever-after, but I feel sure we’re going have at least a few minutes together, enough to cover a great deal of conversational ground. My longing is not to waste one second of the experience.

After I race toward Nate and we enjoy an embrace, we begin to talk. He’s clear-eyed, smiling and full of peace as he looks at me. I’m full of questions, sputtering them out like machine gun fire. “What’s it like where you live? Have you met Jesus? What did he say? Did you meet our miscarried baby? Boy or girl? Did the baby recognize you? Have you seen our four parents? Have you met Adam and Eve? Moses? Elvis?”

There’s so much I want to know, I can’t make myself stop asking to wait for his answers. When I finally stop, Nate lovingly squeezes me and says, “You’ll get your answers all in good time.”

“I miss you so much it hurts,” I say, “and I love you more now than I ever did. I wish you could come back home. Can you?”

He looks me straight in the eye and says, “Would you want me to re-enter all that pain and disease? Life wasn’t good for either of us then.” He’s tenderly holding my elbow now, achingly reminiscent of the way he used to assist me up every curb without realizing it.

My heart screams, “Tell him you want him back, even like that!” But the rest of me remembers the pain and misery, and I can’t say it.

I drop my head in disappointment, acknowledging the sad truth of our new separation. Nate puts his arm around me and says, “God did the merciful thing, the kind thing, in taking me from this earth and from our family when he did.” I knew he was right.

Too soon our time is over, and Nate must leave again. Before he goes, though, he bends and gives me a long, firm hug and says, “Don’t worry about answers to your questions. Your future is nothing but glorious!” And then he smiles goodbye and walks away, back down the road. I stand there crying but know that chasing him, grabbing onto him, won’t keep him with me any more than it did when I held onto him as he died. Nate and I are in different worlds now, and neither of us can live with one foot in each.

Once his walking form is out of sight, I turn and walk back up the lane to my empty cottage, trying hard to retain the feeling of his hug and the other-worldly peace of his eyes. In not getting the answers to my questions, my only choice is to be open to not knowing.

Although I may have to wait 20 or 30 years to participate in the “glorious future” Nate referred to, I have no doubt that one day the same reality will be mine. And on the day I leave this earth, as I dimly hear voices saying, “Goodbye!” I’ll also hear voices saying, “Hello!”

And Nate will be among them.

“Let this be recorded for future generations, so that a people not yet born will praise the Lord. Tell them the Lord looked down from his heavenly sanctuary. He looked down to earth from heaven to hear the groans of the prisoners, to release those condemned to die.” (Psalm 102:18-20)