The Timing of God

One more from me (Nelson) here. We started the day by taking Mom to the airport here in Rochester so she could travel back to Michigan to be present for basically all her children and grandchildren coming for a reunion. That being the case, she didn’t have time to crank out the blog tonight.
I have to pause here and give credit where credit is due. As I drove away from the tiny Rochester airport, I pondered the woman she is. My Mom is a legend. She serves tirelessly here with us, doing wherever is necessary to fill in the holes while I was out of commission and now goes to serve the rest of her children and 15 other grandchildren and basically host retreat to see the giant Life-size Ark down in Kentucky. There is hardly a woman like her who does so much and always keeps a level head despite the changing circumstances.

Plus, she does us all the huge favor of writing this blog tirelessly almost every night so y’all can have prayer material and an update.
Then of course as if on cue, Ann Sophie’s Mom, Astrid, landed here last night from Germany to be with us for a while and finally get to meet her 1 and only grandchild, which is our little Will. We are so thankful for the Lord’s timing when it comes to having the right person with us at the right time. Annso and I were just reflecting to each other that it would be too much for us to go it alone with all my complications and a 4 month old baby all happening at the same time. God is faithful.

Speaking of timing, today was day 10 since my chemo and theoretically around the time when I get a little break from the nausea and vomiting before the next round which is set for July 20 when it starts all over again. All I can say is I’m up for a few boring days.

The only thing happening medically is a blood work-up tomorrow (yes, Mayo is open Sunday) to check Platelet levels so we know where we stand going into the week.

I was never the guy who would wish for a boring weekend. People ask if I have plans and I say, “Hopefully nothing at all happens.”

Just being able to be home with Annso and Will feeling relatively decent is a win in my book. Funny how your priorities change when you really come to grips with the fragility of your humanity. In a weird way, I’m thankful for that part of this fight.

Grueling Turns to Grand

Although Nelson came home from the hospital yesterday, by 6:45 AM today we were leaving home to go back to “Pill Hill,” which is what the locals call the massive Mayo Clinic campus.

First-up for Nelson was a blood draw— only two tries today, which is the limit for each tech. After that, they have to call someone else to try.

The blood draw was to help doctors closely monitor Nelson‘s clot, along with his levels of blood thinner. And these must be balanced with his fluctuating platelet count.

At our second appointment, this one with an oncologist, we learned that if the platelets in his blood continue to drop, the blood thinner must be decreased. Today that happened, since his new count, which had been 55 yesterday, was down to 42. This was disappointing, since dissolving the clot will now take longer.

The doctor lowered Nelson‘s blood thinner from 10 mg twice daily to 2.5 twice, quite a drop, thanks to chemotherapy doing it’s dirty work.

She spent a while examining Nelson and listening to his comments about how he was feeling. The mouth soreness, which has twisted Nelson‘s sense of taste, has become a film, a coating that makes food taste like sawdust (Nelson’s words). She said this will lessen with time, and we hope that’s true.

She told us to wrap Nelson‘s legs more firmly, noting the swelling of his limbs, which is worse than ever. Blood flowing into his arm and hand , she said, can’t freely return past the clot, causing swelling. The legs, she thinks, are a different problem. Veins are leaking fluid that’s been separated from blood flow (thanks to the cancer), which accumulates at the lowest point.

Nelson‘s third appointment was with pulmonology. His doctor and his assistant drained the left lung through its new catheter, 550 milliliters since yesterday. “You’ll have to drain it daily like the other side,” he said.

The right lung had virtually no fluid in it, which is why Ann Sophie couldn’t get it to drain last night. Doing that lung now will be just on alternate days.

As the doctor did an ultrasound, he showed us small pockets or fissures filled with fluid that only a special drug could “get.” But since that process involves being off blood thinners for 48 hours, he felt it was too risky to use it right now.

Our next stop was in the cardiology department where Nelson had another echocardiogram, an imaging test that sees how the heart chambers and valves are working. When the tech suddenly left the room telling Nelson she needed a signature to continue, he pictured himself leaving the exam room on a stretcher and heading back to the hospital.

He said he prayed harder than he ever had that God wouldn’t let that happen —and God didn’t. It turned out the tech had seen some unusual things on her screen, but when she looked at the rest of Nelson‘s record, she understood. Abnormalities are his norm.

From there it was off to one of the Clinic pharmacies to pick up seven prescriptions. Everything was ready.

Halfway through our busy day, Nelson and I shared a brief
lunch in the hospital cafeteria. He was plagued by nausea throughout the meal, scanning the area for an appropriate place to run, if needed. Eventually it passed.

As we headed home at last, chemo’s misery came with us. Soon after we got there, he was vomiting. When it was over, his oxygen helped, and he quickly settled into his lazy boy and fell into a deep sleep.

 

 

It had been quite a day, made worse by chemo dogging our steps. But at 7 PM, something grand happened. Ann Sophie‘s mom arrived to our apartment, all the way from Germany! It was love at first sight for Oma and little Will— something chemo could not snatch from us.

“Let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us…” (Hebrews 12:1)

God is here.

Throughout the Bible, God tells us he’ll never abandon us. He assures us of his love and says he’s as close as our right hand. But sometimes, when going through life‘s hardest challenges, we wonder where he is.

Here in Rochester, as we do our best to take one day at a time, we often pray this:

“Father, please let us see you today. Give us a strong sense of your presence.” Those are good prayers, since sometimes God seems to have gone away.

Or has he?

Yesterday when Nelson was discouraged about not being able to leave the hospital, he and Ann Sophie prayed, asking God to deliver some specific encouragement. “Show us your unfailing love, Lord.“

It didn’t take him very long to show himself. As Ann Sophie was leaving Nelson’s hospital room, one of the nurses said, “I’m praying for you. We need the Lord to make your path straight.”

That’s a direct quote from Proverbs 3:6, and suddenly, there was God, speaking his own words over Ann Sophie.

In the hospital elevator, a young man saw baby Will and said, “Is it your baby that’s sick ?”

Ann Sophie said, “No.”

“That’s good,“ he said. “It’s not my baby, either. It’s me.“

“Is it cancer?“

“Yes, but I hope to get some time.“

Before he walked away he said, “Don’t ever give up. Just keep trusting the Lord.“ And there was God, with another important truth from his word.

A few minutes later, as Ann Sophie was leaving the hospital after dark, she’d forgotten where she’d parked the car and was walking around several blocks. A man looking like he might want to cause trouble approached her. Her inner defenses went up, especially since she had the baby with her.

When the man passed her by, he stopped, turned around, and said, “May God bless you and your little baby. And remember, Jesus loves you.“

Ann Sophie thanked him and saw God again. None of us believe these encounters are anything other than God himself moving in close with love, courage and a special message: “I’m here.”

Also, today he showed his loving kindness big-time by giving Nelson the desire of his heart—to come home!

Of course things aren’t perfect. His legs, feet and left arm are still badly swollen, and chemo-nausea kicked in tonight with some vomiting. Then the catheter into his right lung refused to drain. So it’s back to the clinic tomorrow for further tests and a troubleshooting ultrasound.

 

But tonight, none of that matters, because our Nelson is home.

Jesus told his disciples, “Because you have seen me, you believe….” (John 20:29)